STATEMENT MADE BY BOBBY BEAUSOLEIL AT HIS JUNE 2003 PAROLE HEARING.
I would like to make a statement and say a few things. Now this is the part where I get to tell you why I think you ought to let me out of prison. And you know, that’s not really what I understand about what is happening and that was really happening, because this really is not about me. I understand that now, whereas I didn’t when I was a kid, you know, when I was 20 or 21 years old. I thought it was all about me. But it’s not about me. This is about what is best for society. I hope that what is best for society and what I can bring to a successful parole will coincide at some point. I do want to be united with my family, but like I said, it’s not really about what I want.
But for what it’s worth, I’m going to tell you what I want. What I want is to be able to no longer be considered a liability. I want to be considered an asset. I am fully capable of doing that. I have abilities and talents that I worked very hard to develop, that I’ve learned how to use in a way that’s beneficial to a lot of people, both in this community on the inside and to the outside community. I’d like to be able to do this more effectively. So if it’s about what I want, that’s what I want to be able to do.
But again, it’s not really about what I want. It’s about what is best for society. And in that regard, I’ll say this. I am really extremely sorry for what I’ve done to bring harm to all the people that I’ve brought harm to over the years. And it begins, of course, with Gary. And I am fully cognizant of what I did there. I mean there’s discrepancies in the facts, and I really can’t speak to that anymore. I’ve told you what I know from my own experience, and I hope that you will use that to mitigate Danny DeCarlo’s self-serving statements early on. It’s my own fault that I didn’t own up early on and have this be part of the actual court records. So I have nobody to blame there. And so I can’t really tell you that you have to believe me. All I can do is represent to the best of my ability the facts as I know them.
I killed Gary Hinman. I am responsible for that. It was my decision to do it. Nobody forced me or ordered me to do it. I feel that I was, you know, as I’ve said, I was kind of forced into the position of being there in the first place, but that, again, was from the decisions that I had made earlier on. I had entered into a drug transaction that escalated and got out of control. But I made that decision initially, and it rests with me. I must hold myself accountable.
Insofar as how it has hurt Gary, in 1981, a man did exactly to me what I did to him. I was stabbed in the heart and both lungs, and for some reason, some miracle kept me alive. And so now I since then for the past 22 years, I’ve had an opportunity to remember what that felt like. So I know what I did. I also know how it affected Gary’s family because I know intimately how it affected mine. Excuse me. I hurt a lot of people, and I’m very sorry for having done that. I want to be able to give something back. It is my very clear intention to give something back, to do the best that I can to make amends, to honor Gary’s life by helping other people to understand how I took it, so that they won’t make the same mistakes that I’ve made.
I think that’s probably the best that I can give, although I know it’s never really enough. If all I have is a prison cell and a piece of paper and a pencil, I will continue that work. Thank you.
I still cannot believe the arrogance of Bobby Beausoleil. This guy really, truly thinks he is a celebrity of some sort. He has people like producer Don Murphy (Col Scott) writing him support letters, and offering him work at Sony Pictures, etc. Also he continues that stupid bullshit lie about Gary Hinman screwing him over on a drug deal. Whoever believes that bullshit is extremely dumb. There was NO EVIDENCE at all to suggest that Gary Hinman was a manufacturer of drugs. Hey, maybe in the past he did fart around with making his own shit, but that had absolutely NOTHING to do with Bobby, and those two skanks going over there, and murdering the guy. How come Bobby is the only one out of the group that remembers it was over a drug deal? How come he blames Danny DeCarlo? HELLO: He blames DeCarlo, because DeCarlos testified against him. He has a reason to blame him. The reason this prick can’t get out of prison is because he cannot tell the truth! Nobody believes a word out of his mouth, except for the morons who think he has talent, which isn’t many. He isn’t sorry he killed Gary. He feels MORE sorry for himself that he has wasted his whole life in prison. He feels that the biggest victim in this whole thing is himself. Poor me. I didn’t get to tour with my recording group, and make it big, even though I have mediocre talent, at best. He thinks that he will be able to make a living by working at home in his “studio” playing around on those stupid electric guitar/synthesizers he toys around with. Uh, how the hell is that going to make him a living? Does he know how expensive California & Oregon are to live in? Does he know what property taxes are? Does he know that synthesizers are really stupid? This fool is his own worst enemy!